arg! okay yesterday talked to my Nathan and he told me he was gonna be working all day wouldn't get in till around 1am. So anyways i left the instant chat up so if he did come on when he got home i could say goodnight to him. I kinda had that feeling when i think he's going to be on, and im 90% of the time right. Well it became after 6 which is 2am his time so i figured i probably won't catch him on tonight. no biggie he needs his rest. But i had left the chat thing up and was outside working with nana. was pulling weeds and cleaning the yard. I come in and he wrote!!! i missed him by like 15 minutes!!

18:49:16 Nathan hola baby girl
18:56:22 Nathan just want to let you know i love you
19:01:10 Nathan love you sweet dreams night

he was on for 12 minutes..... and i missed him..... omg i was so bummed.....
was outside pulling weeds thinking about how if he gets along with nana well then maybe next time he comes down he can stay in the spare room and then daydreaming bout him being there all of working on the yard... lol yeah i tend to daydream alot, came inside while she cut the grass and saw the missed messages.... can't tell u how just upset and ahh.... lol kay im being silly, its just every moment with him is so special and important specially right now i don't know when i'll get to talk to him next, he has so much going on and next week im going to my parents so that means no talking to him while im there, and those few minutes missed is just frusterating.......
so now im sad and upset sad sad sad