omg i feel really pathetic. lol i am sad, i so want to talk to my Nathan that i have the instant chat left up. And were working on the yard and ever 20-30 minutes i come inside to see if he's on yet back and forth, and... this is something i do alot? and i feel silly thinking about it now. Maybe i need a break from him. i mean he's busy so we have sorta been having a break in a way, but i mean on my part i need to stop being so attached. Wanting to talk to him everyday wishing i could, i am starting to feel desperate and pathetic, i mean it be diffrent if i was talking to him everyday. but im not im just waiting and wanting to and im feeling silly. I know he's busy so i need to stop waiting around hoping to catch him in those moments that he's not... ehh this is hard but i need to put some space. I don't want to be that desprete girl my family accuses me of being. but at the same time i do miss him and i don't want to slowly distance myself from him. this all just sucks... idk what i should do then. stay away and keep me sane or try for those moments i get with him or?