i am just mush, lol but i like bieng his mush. Ah he says things that just make me melt. Lol he makes me cry, but happy tears gosh i love him so darn much, i am just, lol idk im just so happy that i have him and ahh lol im at a loss of words, so happy to have gotten to talk to him, 4 days would have been to long to not tell him i love him. I love hearing it, when he tells me he loves me and is sweet i get butterflys and i hate my smile but i smile so much but i also love telling him that i love him. I love him so much!!!!!!!
Mhm its easy to put him first but still hard. I so wanted to be selfish and stay up all night talking to him. lol i did in my head, i wrote and told him he needs to sleep but in my head i had a whole dif reply. I wanted him so badly, so so badly, crave his attention right now.craving him. But it was going to be 3am for him and he has to get up at 7am (he had barely got in and got home when he logged on to talk to me) so he comes first. My poor babys working so hard. I miss him through this, but i am very proud of him.
He told me about how he was working at weddings and he can see himself with me, and lol was kinda funny timming cause i was all looking at wedding rings just a few hours earlier. (not saying i am wanting a proposal, but its nice to imagine)

Anyways i am happy, lol i am a rollercoaster of happy and sad, bieng with him drives me insane. But hes so worth this ride. I love him dearly, truly, madly, completly, he's mine for always and i am never letting him go