Eh okay i just replied to a message from my SO, and then internet connection failed, or is said "502 Bad Gateway" so i kept refreshing and then finally it allows me to re-write, so rewrite it click send and again it doesn't go through, blegh. So ah well i'll just have to wait to tell him. I come home today, was at my parents house past few days. And i am ready to come home. As much as i love my family, i can only take small doses of them before they drive me insane. I did open up a little to my dad about Nathan. He again told me how he can't see how i can be in love with him. He says love is made through experience together, i don't understand how you can say i love you to a boy you never met. I know its a struggle for my dad to understand, but i can't and won't change my feelings for Nathan. I told dad too that he makes it hard to open up to him, i never know how he's going to react. I can tell him something and he's supportive and fine with it and then the next day or later that day hes suddenly upset and talking about it and against it. and just it makes it hard, i do look up to my dad... i know i dont show it and never tell him or anyone. but i really do admire my dad, he has so much strength and has accomplished so much... but hes hard to approach and open up to. Anyway was a good talk we had, lol was funny cause he did ask about him, and during the walk we passed by someone, i was walking ahead of them and he said that guy looked like Nathan huh? i hadn't seen so i didn't know, but was like okay? lol so sometimes i think he tries. I just hope when he sees him and see's that our love is real, he will be supportive.

Anyways, go home in 5 hours! woo!