Today was spent with Nathan, was nice overall. Lol i wish i said everything i wanted to, had so much to say and show and do. But the morning was missed and then when he first came on he was still busy so it was shared time and so was okay, but finally i got to see him and spend time with him but i lost everything i got so shy and all the things i wanted to talk about and do i forgot or i was to shy to do it. SO i kind of messed up our anniversary, i really wanted to wow him and get him engaged in me and to just take up all his attention and focus, which i did maybe but i wanted to idk, i was just very boring and we didn't know what to talk about at points, then nana came home and the day was over. Im so grateful he came on and so happy but eh i wish i made it better for him. i feel a bit disapointed in myself. I just wanted today to go so much differantly then it did.

lol and i kinda nervous to flirt with him to much or be naughty.... just cause hes coming so soon!! ehh im kinda frusterated cause i wanna sometimes but idk like right now im in one of "those" moods after seeing him and yeah its sad.... he is asleep now so gonna watch DWTS and push these thoughts away

he was so super cute, im so happy i got to see him, i love it so much, made today good for me, anyways happy 2nd anniversary, lol my poor nathans stuck with me