Blegh, my family is going to be difficult, i am officially sure of that. Today Nathan had a video chat with my two of my siblings. The first was easy and short, with my lil brother. But then went in with my other sister and she is hard. First off she is very negitive, she makes comments and just runs her mouth all the time.She's always been like this tho, we've gotten into so many fights and just bump heads. But today she was talking to him about her opinion on him and about him not telling his family. And my poor nathan lol he isn't very good with video chats, so he didn't really have a good convo with her. My sisters mind is set one way she can't see it on his side. Its a bit annoying for me, because im tired of the negativity. I can see it on both sides. If looking at on my sisters side i can understand her thoughts of just telling his parents, its scary but if his minds made up and nothing can really change his plans and feelings about me then why not just take the chance and risk and get it over with? But i also see his side, it was really scary and hard for me to tell my family and since then they haven't made things easy and when your distant with your family and don't have that relationship where you can come to them, and plus im not the one travelling miles away to see him first, he is, hes taking that chance. so it is scary. So this issue is hard. Im not looking forward to talking to dad about any of this.

long convo, in the end i love Nathan and im choosing to be with him, no matter what im his and he is mine. family can make it hard but they can't change my mind. I just hope so much that nathan never gets tired of the stress and issues my family bring, i never ever want to lose him. He is everything to me. and i hope that he goes to his parents and tells them of me soon so i can have one less issue. but soon! just 2 weeks until i have him with me. i can't wait