Just less than 5 days until I see Nathan! I am ready! I am so ready to see my baby! Was out with mom all day and she thinks its going to be weird for me, she's all "I know you already, you never even talked to a boy" But she doesn't know how real our relationship is. How i've opened myself up to him and shared my life. So i think when i see him and im with him, its going to be a bit of a shock for her. lol for everyone who knows me i guess. I was a really shy kid, and i was barely gaining confidence when i started this weight loss group a few months before i met Nathan, and then falling for him, I think i've grown and changed alot since then, the journey that i've taken with him, discovering myself.
I really have let him in and opened up to him in a way i never have with anyone else. I feel strongly about us, and when were together. I mean sure i have worries, im self concious. eh tried on bathing suits today.... lol thats never a confident boost. So have a few self image issues, but over all i know he loves me for me and not what i look like. I can't wait to really be with him, im tired of loving him from afar. I want to tell him how amazing i think he is. How he amazes and inspires me all the time. To tell him I love him!! ahh less than a week until i can tell him in person!!

Tomorrow im going shopping woo, gonna get my outfit for that day, and tomorrow im also telling dad...dun dun duhhh
eh nervous how he's going to be. But im going to be firm on my feelings. lol going to take a small purse and record that convo for nathan to hear. So if i have trouble talking to dad later when he listens i can ask him what he thinks i shoulda said lol

Anyways so very soon! Want to speed up time and hurry and be in his arms!