So he left today, and im at home now alone, and it feels so empty. I feel numb to it though, like im not sure how to feel. I want him to come in and be annoyed with me for being on the computer, then go lay in my bed so i can crawl in next to him. I want to wrap my arm around him and for him to pull me close to him and kiss my head, then my lips when i look up at him. I miss him so much. Its only been a few hours but i miss him so much. Seen him cry was hard, really really hard, its never something i want to see. But when he called me it made things better. Him calling multiple times. I have to get better at talking on the phone, its a bit easier now then before, because maybe i spent all this time with him talking instead of typing? Either way its so much better in person then online or on the phone. I hope things go by fast and time just flys, he says hes coming back soon, i so hope so. In the mean time im going to job hunt. Im going to make a list of all the places tomorrow and get the numbers and call and see if there hiring then on saturday call them all when i can get a ride to drop by and pick up a application at all the places that are. I want to really step it up and go over to scotland next summer. Ill do whatever it takes. I want to hurry and close the distance.