*edit*

sorry about that. was just silly. And its not even worth talking to Nathan about. I think what it really is, is my own insecurities. Because i trust him, now i just need to trust that im enough. So what i did right now is wrote a huge letter, let it all out and then sent it to the recycle bin and deleted it. And i feel better. so eh sorry for the previous rant, i wish there was a way to delete blogs? is there instead of having to just do this and edit it.