so its 2am and can't sleep. Tomorrow is my nana's birthday. I had spent the past two days working on a birthday gift for her. So tomorrow will be nice. Up now trying to get sleepy. Playing that new game on FB, the Vampire diaries one. Its not bad. I went and checked my messages, and my Nathan had wrote me. He has been really attentive to me lately. Thats not something out of the oridinary, its just i really apreciate that well im his first part of his day almost. He writes me when he gets up before he goes to school, and it just makes me feel really special. That aww im loved feeling lol. But im excpecting it to die down a bit soon. He's told me and im prepared for him to be getting alot busier with school and work and such. So im enjoying his time while he can give it. Im hoping time flys faster. I really miss him, its starting to get easier. Not that i want him any less but its not as hard as it was before, but gosh do i miss him. So can't wait for these months to fly by. originally I was re-thinking things about him visiting, Thinking he shouldn't come in april. Because it would only be 2 weeks and it seems like a waste of money, Just wait till i come for 6 months then use that money to come back with me for 3 months. But he says he will have enough for both by then. So we'll see. The more i think about it the more i do actually want him to come in april. Plus that way he can help me tell my parents and also help me prepare and get ready to go there with him. But that depresses me too, im not sure now how likely it will be for me to go in may. I really want more then anything to celebrate our anniversary together, but the way things are right now, idk if i'll have saved by then. Which is so depressing. I shouldn't have made a promise to him that i might not be able to keep. So im praying for work. Thats 6 whole months, i do not want to miss out on 6 whole months. Eh so trying not to stress about it yet but that keeps creeping in my thoughts. Anyways going to go try to sleep again. So i can wake up early tomorrow. Today i slept in till 2!! I was so shocked, and at first thought the clock was wrong. When i sleep in till 11, i think thats crazy! So 2!! eh idk whats wrong with me. So going to try to be up by 8 today.