He makes me feel better. Sometimes i just need to talk to him and to hear that reassurance that were going to be together. He sounds so positive and sure though, and i don't know how he can be so positive. Theres a big chance i won't be able to go, and i won't have enough by then. So its hard to be as sure as he is about it. But im just going to trust his words and focus on being together. I love him more then anything. And i love hearing he's fully committed to me. I hae being so far but its not forever, need to keep that on focus. I do get scared with him not being with me, with all this waiting, and missing eachother, i dont ever want him to lose hope. So its official, i admitted it fully to him and myself, that im making him my future. Apart of me was scared to admit that hes everything and my only want, but he is. I mean i would like to go to school one day and do things but those are just likes or little wishes, he's my want and need. I just hope that im always his want and need. I want to always be his main focus. I love him truly

On other notes its hot here. I feel as if im in a sauna! And the air condition dont seem to work. And going to go watch teen mom, big brother and what my Nathan put in our drop box. So im off for the night, night