Sometimes it just really hits me hard. Im so glad that im staying the night with my cousins, or else I might be crying. Just was sittting on the couch drawing, when memories came to mind. I can remember when we were sitting there, how it feels to be in his arms, cuddled up to him. And i miss it, I miss him so much. I want to hurry and be together. Im tired of crying, when is it going to get easier?
Nathan has been sick since he's gone back home, and to be honest im a bit worried and scared. Two months just seems a long time to be ill, and I hate that im not there to comfort him. I ask for prayer for him, and that he will feel better.
I so hope too he can book his flight and make it official, I think when he does we wont be as depressed, because it will be a garuntee that were going to see eachother. 7 months from now. I need to do my part, need to somehow some way save up and be able to go for 6 months, I need to be with him, I sometimes feel that when I go online to talk to him it makes me depressed, because I hate being so far, And so when he comes on and were not the most talkative, it just upsets me. I feel so frusterated because I want more than anything to be with him. Idk, not sure where im going with this, im just hating the distance.