So was up late culdn't sleep and so i was looking at old conversations and messages. I tend to do this when im missing him and i stumbled across messages from a year ago. And He is just so sweet and amazing.

natbo92 wrote (about 1 year ago)
and im putting you first ive decided kay no what ifs no buts just im putting you first you can retake courses but you cant miss out on loving someone once they are gone they are gone and theres no second chances i love you so much


natbo92 wrote (about 1 year ago)
you are more important in my life right now, i need you in my life so i just want to give you the time you deserve

And he really has been doing this again this year. Even though he's so busy he's been spending all his nights with me, and even though he's tired, he still comes on. I so love him for this. And whats more is after the 2 years we spent together, he still loves me and treats me the same as before. Still makes me feel special and say it with his words. Im so lucky to have him in my life. And that he hasn't lost any affection for me or treated me with less attention as time went on. He makes me feel loved.

natbo92 wrote (about 8 hours ago)
aww i love you so much baby girl you really do mean the world to me, i will always be open and honest with you, i love you so much

natbo92 wrote (2 days ago)
i just want to tell you i hate seeing you fighting with yourself over something so small you are a beautiful sexy girl and i love you so much

I won't ever let him go or lose him. He means everything to me. I cannot imagine my life without him, why is time passing by so slowly! How I wish he were here now to hold me, and maybe then i could get to sleep. I hope he always knows he has my heart. I need him so badly.

I love you Nathan, truly do, and i so wish i was with you.