It's one of th best feelings to know that your accepted. That the one you love, loves you to and accepts you flaws and all. I semi vented to him, and I told him how I get insecure at times. And he accepts this and reasurres me. I know I have his love, I know that im his and he's mine. But I still get insecure sometimes about the pretty girls in his life. The one's he's friends with, the ones that can reach out and touch him, call him, hang out with him. Right now he's so busy so he doesn't go out much, but i still get these thoughts in my head. I still sometimes compare myself, and so many little things pop in my head. I know im so pathetic and petty, jealous of little flirts or kind words. I know no one will steal him from me, but i still don't like it, i don't like being so far and others being cutsy with him. But im working on this. Not going to let it bug me and if it does im going to swallow this silly feelings and ignore it, push it out of my head.
We talked and i feel better, reassured and loved. I blame the distance, not being there, and not seeing him and being there for him and letting my mind wonder when im thinking about him. But going to make the rest of the night good. Going to make sure that when he goes to sleep he knows im crazy about him, that i love him so much. And time can't come fast enough. Im so greatful he is so good to me, patient and understanding, even if im a possesive jealous girlfriend. He truly is my one true love.
So we just did questions, lol i come up with questions and ask him and he answers. I enjoy these moments. He comes up blank on some but he always answers them. There just conversation topics. I can't wait to see him! its still so far away but its soon.

On un-related note im going to see breaking dawn sunday! Im interested to see how they do it. And then plan on seeing happy feet sometime after.

*edit* i just blankly told him everything and just more reasons why i love him and why he is so worth everything. He is so good to me and understanding, love him!!!