Things are looking up. You know i think happiness is mental, you have to choose to go out and have a good day... easier said then done. But today has been good. Although I planned to spend it with my Nathan, we had to re-schedule. But when he came on, after me checking every 15 minutes, I got butterflys! It was like yes!! finally i missed you! I got all silly with a silly smile, just happy. But he was so tired, my poor love. so I don't mind waiting, Im glad he came on to tell me. So now im looking forward to having Thursday with him. i want to talk and just be open and cheery and talkative and have a good time. But back to today.
I am so in a romantic mood. Maybe because I spent the past 2 hours watching 4 weddings? Or before that looking up wedding blogs? Im excited, I have a love of an amazing man. And yes i miss him, and it can be depressing. Im more lucky than i am unlucky. haha that make sense? I want to focus on the positives. I was letting my dads words get to me, yes im not independent fully and I havent worked, but at this point and moment its to late to change that, and i can't do anything about it so im not going to dwell. Just going to look to the future. And make the most of it, and have an amazing time with my baby when i see him, and then as soon as i come back home im going to kick butt and save and work hard.

Was just watching this and it's random, and most of you have probably seen it but it still gets to me. I think it's the best part of the whole movie. The beginning is just so sweet and cute and then it's so sad and i almost cry.


just so sad.... but yeah i feel like watching a really good sentimental movie now. I so cant wait to see the vow!! grr I wish I could send valentines day together with my baby, Have yet to celebrate a valentines day in person yet, so here's to hoping for next year. Were going to both wait on the vow though, and watch it when he's here. Looks like such a good movie.

Well I'll end this blog now. Just sharing my ubeat feeling, i feel so positive, had a low now its back to high.