So home! My arm is all red, I refused to make a second trip to the car, so i put all the grocery bags on my arms and carried it inside, heavy and all haha. Today was nice over all, went out and did shopping, and read books. I ordered a gift for Nathan, it's nothing much, i wish I could have gotten this set but it was almost 100 bucks, I was like omg really? so i went small.... but I wanted to do something for him so badly. Im thinking of saving it for his birthday, but its in august so far away so maybe if it ships in time i'll give it to him on v-day? If not i'll have to wait till he's here or save it till his birthday.
I really want to make v-day special, I feel right now, with the distance again and my family drama, and his classes and just everything, he's not feeling the love enough. So the other day me and Alayna had fun having our own little photo shoot. And then today I went and got my picture.... Im starting to having second thoughts. I wanted to be flirty, but cute, just a little reminder of me he can have. But the more i look at it, the more im thinking of not sending it..... so we'll see. Im at the moment really missing his love. ...
Oh so okay I wanted to get him a card, they have some cute ones sometimes, but when i went there weren't any! Was all really boring, plain ones, and they were calling me to hurry up, and I panicked lol Instead of not getting any and waiting I just picked the best out of the bunch... but the cover is ucky... So i think ill re-decorate it, draw something for him and make it more personal. He's just been on my mind all day long lol

So was kind of bummed when he didn't really write me, I get it though, he has a lot on his plate right now and is busy. Plus i've been through worse, of no contact at all, so it's better then nothing. Im just hoping and praying for our tuesday. I miss my man lol
And i hope he misses me just as much, he said he misses me, so... lol yeah kk

On other news I am going to my parents, for about 12 days, which is so much better then a month, but if it gets bad my nana can pick me up after 4. And so I think it will be okay. I am going to be strong and just not take it, and I won't let them talk negitivly to me about me or Nathan. They don't know it yet, but he's my future husband, mhmm this thought keeps me going. I still get butterflys when i say it out loud. Can't believe he wants and chooses me. So ehhh have to stay strong and not be needy. its been since the 12th since i last seen him on cam... miss him...
I think visiting my family will be good, I been at the house to much, and its lonely, I find myself restless and just feeling... well all alone, I don't like it always. Lol excluding hanging out with a friend on skype. But i need to socialize. Going to catch up with some friends, and going to hang out and meet new people. And just get out a bit, I think tho Nathans a bit upset with me going, so im hoping he'll still talk to me when im there, gosh i miss him so much. Lol thinking about him i feel like crying.


Going to go make a green smoothie right now! I'll let you know how it turns out!