So today was really nice over all. I had a hard time falling asleep though, silly me. I was to excited about talking to Nathan, crazy huh? I could sleep in and have plenty of time but noooo... My body doesn't let me sleep! Was okay though, I woke up at 7, after idk how long it took to fall asleep. I got all fixed up... which I think he knew I did it for him, because he later in the day asked me why I curled my hair if im not going out... l
But got fixed up, had to babysit my cousins, but only for a half hour, and then we spent the day together, it was so nice! From 10am to nearly 4pm. He was on cam the whole time too! I got a pic, maybe i'll share, but he was just so cute. And I needed this, after the past few days our conversations, this was just nice. Talking about when together, talking about when there and!! One of the highlights, my babys Animation is nominated for best animation! Says "awarding the best in Scottish talent at this year’s Creative Scotland Student Media Awards"
Amazing my baby is huh?
But just a really good day together, And it's now in the 10 days until I see him, I want it to be 1 so bad!!

But then after he leaves I get a call from my grandma, and she was going on about trying to get me to visit her before I leave to scotland. I found out that she has been talking negitive about me, about going to Scotland with Nathan by myself, and I don't really care. But she wants me to visit, and I told her I can't. I leave in May, and in between I have my time with Nathan for 2 weeks then april 21st have a big day, then mothers day, and some time in May is a family event, and I leave on the 15th, so really I can't go visit for a week, have to much going on. And to be honest I don't really want to go.... At least not by myself.... Im sorry but I don't, course I would never say this. But now she's saying she wants to come down and visit me! Asking when Nathan will be here and such ehhh...... I already know though my nana won't want her staying here. So im hoping she doesn't come down.

And on other family related... Mom wants me and Nathan to come down and visit them now and spend the night. Im more okay with this than Nathan will be. He doesn't have anything against my mom or family but it's just we haven't seen each othe in 8 months and we have only these two weeks and were already spending the first two days with family and then again with more family on easter. But now mom wants us to go back on easter and stay until monday. I didn't tell mom no but I didn't tell her yes. I told her idk, i'll think about it. Because my dad.... he knows about me and Nathan being together, and I don't want any awkwardness. Plus I want my personal time with my baby. But at the same time, I do want to please my parents and make them happy. But I don't know how to ask Nathan to do more for me. His first visit here he was bombarded by family. It's always family. So im afraid to ask him kind of, not that he'd get mad, but that he won't want to and i'll make him dread his visit. But if we did mom says she promises to take us back monday so it would be 1 day. Idk... I wish my family would just back off a bit..Leave-Me-Alone-The-Anti-Social-Media-283x300.jpg I have never had any full space from my family. They have always had a say and been protective and just always in my business. Idk

And on another sad note.... I gained a ton... like well not a ton but enough to make me sad, i mean be fine if a few pounds but its more and its a week before he comes!! And instead of being good i said heck with it and ate 3 hot dogs lol...
I wouldn't care so so much but... its a week before he's here and i wanna be cute and wear shorts and feel confident. Could i work it all off in a week? Eh just a lil upset....


But! In the end today was a good day! Because I got to see and spend today with him!
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I love him so much! And he is so sexy, I swear I have the sexiest bf. He makes me melt and go gaga over him lol. I so miss cuddling up and hugging on him!!