Okay so the past week I have been looking in to go to culinary. Now if I had applied to the school yesterday I would then have to apply online for my student visa, then go drive to get finger printed and then wait. It would mean changing my flight most likely because they take your passport for this. It can be done in as little as 14 days or can take longer. But after talking to his mom, and my grandma more. Then me and him talking I decided to wait. So now we have a new plan. I shall go for the 5 months then come back. HOPEFULLY WORK!! Please pray I find work when I come back, I need to save up a good 2 grand or more. Then I will apply for next year. The way we are looking into it though, may mean only 4-5 months apart. And my crazy hard working baby says he might even fly down for christmas, so even less time apart. Just works out better this way theres not as much rush.
The thought of going to culinary was amazing, and I wanted it bad and I wanted the year with my SO and doing it together bad too. But it was to fast, having to decide all this in a week was to much for me. But this is good, im thankful for the five months.
Now guilty time. Im pmsing and yesterday I was emotionally drained and frustrated. I rambled on and said things that didn't make sense and I may have confused my baby. It was late so he went to bed, but I can't tell now if I screwed up something. Im hoping and praying not, and im hoping he writes when he gets home. Why do girls freak out so much? I blew nothing into something. I have been dreaming of us and this for months, wanting, planning in my head, dreaming, and then I now have lost it for idk how much longer now? I know im not making sense, im just rambling, im upset with myself, I hope he knows to ignore me, count that as crazy emotions and continue his plans. I want to come back home with news lol I do. I hope to, and that he will say something.
Anyways my update, no culinary school, but still 5 amazing months with my love. I leave in 25 days! woo!
Tomorrow my lastlast week visit with my parents and siblings. Im almost there!! Can't wait!
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kiara_silver started a blog post No culinary....No culinary....
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#1Moon commentedEditing a commentI think you've made a good decision! Have a great 5 months together
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#2lucybelle commentedEditing a commentI think this was the best choice! Have fun in the UK!
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#3squeeker commentedEditing a commentI think you've chosen a good choice, it's less stressful, you don't have to worry about possibly changing your flight date, and you still get to see him for 5 months and then only 4-5 months between visits and maybe not even?? That's awesome still!! And don't worry, I'm sure your Nathan will understand and forgive your emotionalness, especially once the next time you talk you can explain why you were emotional to clear things over. Take care, less than a month until you are there and have fun!!
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