I am a petty jealous possesive person. I guess its good Nathan see's this fully so he can't say he didn't know what he was getting into when he marries me. But really he puts up with a lot. I can be so petty and ask for such selfish requests. It has just been on my mind, off and on and I had been trying to let it go but insane me just can't do that. I don't know why but i cant let things go, it just sits and stirs in my mind. All I kept thinking is when I go home will it happen again, will he go for comfort, ect ect. And I put myself in this depressed mood. But I just let it out and he just like that resolved all my worries. Just like always, makes everything all better. I truly have found the one person im meant to be with, who can handle all of me, all the crazy that I come with.
I love him so so much, ah and now I can breathe again, feel so much better

I know its horrible, but I just wanted all gone, no more, never have to hear about no going out and he just like that says no more.... Im horrible to ask him to do that..... am i?