My time her is coming to a close, 5 months 10 day visit ends on wednesday. I'll fly home and be back in the US. And I don't want to go....
These past 5 months have been crazy, and a bit of a rollercoaster. I think its pushed open our relationship a ton! This has been the longest visit together, and was really living together. I found a lot and learned my Nathan in new ways, and learned alot about myself. I got to meet his family, and find out who my future family is, and I got to be apart of Nathan life here. I GOT ENGAGED!!! A unbelievable summer!
Getting engaged, was the highlight of this trip, I can't bealive were taking this next step together, and that if all goes as planned 2 years from now I will be his wife!
On top of this I've been to London, Paris, Rome! Went to Disney land, seen the olympic torch, went to the Queens Jubilee, seen fireworks, saw a fox on the beach, the list is endless. No wonder why it went by so fast!

But now its comnig to a end, and im worried about the distance. Just.... being apart after such a long visit, Im not sure how eaither one of us is going to handle it. Yes I know we can and will, but its so hard... and im a very bad girl, I cant help it but i know ill get all jealous and be "that" girl who hates some of his female friends... maybe...
But were making plans, he's promised he'll come see and visit me within 6 months, and then shortly after if all goes as planned i'll be coming back for culinary school.
Since i've been here and love Scotland, and adore his family I am all on board coming back as soon as I can. My number one reason is to be with Nathan, but on top of that if you haven't read my previous blogs, culinary is one of my dreams.I have wanted to learn to cook properly for years and I have the oppertunity to! His parents have offered to pay half the tution, and just its an amazing oppertunity. So when Nathan comes to see me we'll move on applying for the student visa and applying for college. His dad said that the college was intrested in me for this year, so hopefully they still are for next.

I go home in two days... And Im trying not to cry. It hits me and i get all depressed and I think it upsets Nathan, and I try to hide it but im sad, it hits him too. Going to enjoy our last two days together though. We had an amazing weekend, went mini golfing with the family and then yesterday we went looking for gold. Got gems Nathans at college now, so have time to kill, im all packed up. Can't wait to cuddle my man soon.