So I decided to blog, I don't know why but it makes me feel better to just write, and vent even if I don't have any vent worth topics. The status on me i feel like is at a stand still at the moment. Work searching is frustrating! I just got home now from a walk, and I have a few more places to apply to now. So shall sit and do that, but there arn't many help wanted signs or hiring. Still i had my mopey days and im going to be positive and keep trying! Im also working on a self "business" I have a order and the email said that it should arrive tomorrow! Im excited to see! Ordering online is a little scary, you don't know what your getting exactly, other then what you saw in the picture. But the teddies are cute, so i hope they are in person.
Writing this just reminded me need to call my mom lol. Almost forgot! Have a layway that needs to have a payment, but I wont be down there until after thanksgiving. Which reminds me, yay thanksgiving, so looking forward to turkey lol and! I plan on making and trying out these mint chocolate cupcakes I want to make things! Been drawing and painting, and I cant wait to start making teddies. Just want to do things!

Nathans been keeping busy, working and finishing college.... I so miss his Zumba classes.... I miss seeing him, swear he looks so sexy doing it, lol reminds me of this lady at a craft fair talking about zumba she liked going because the instructor was male and wasnt bad to look at, lol i had that 3 times a week lol
As far as me, im not sure exactly. I think im on the verge of something? Idk, im over emotional, and im in these weird moods, I need to snap out of it. Seriously its depressing, and I dont want to be depressed. I can feel when i start to, and its scary. So trying to keep positive. I know my mood affects Nathan too, and I dont want to create problems or a wedge between us. Expecially now, with so much in our future to look forward to and only 2 and a half months till hes here. Thats not to long.... so gah i need to get out of this funk.