Was going to blog, about a few things but something has put a damper on my mood. My fault really, I accidentally may have ruined plans Nathan had. He's not upset at me, just bummed out and upset I ruined them, but now i wanted to cry when he said he just wont plan anything. Even though before tonight I didn't know of it, I want whatever he was planning now. He was planning something special and I don't know if it was for valentines or just a day to be special or what but I ruined it.... I could smack myself. I have done this before to which makes it worse. So so so mad!!! And im mad that this could have been a goodnight, but I messed it up. And just him being bummed out makes me want to cry. I wish he would change his mind. And wish he would see how sorry i am, he said its fine, i don't need to apologize but he doesn't know how sorry i am.

Well let see if I can still write about what I was going to.
He comes in 24 days 16 hours. And I shall be at the airport! No matter what I am determined to be there. This will be the first time where it will just be us. Before my mom was there, then it was when he surprised me so my family was near, and then it was his mom. So this time it will be only us. And I am looking forward to running in his arms. Okay maybe not run... but then again maybe? I want to have that long moment, before I was aware that we weren't alone, so I held back on public display of affection. But this time, don't need to. Going to kiss him so hard, lol he will have to work hard not to get turned on. Im looking forward to this part, I know he'll be tired and jet lagged, but I can't hold back, I miss him so much. I was used to being together everyday, and now its been months apart. 3 weeks to go.

Valentines day. He will be here for V-day, it's the first together in person. And yes I know this isn't a big holiday and you don't even get work off for it. But I have a huge corny side and have been looking forward to spending it together since we been together, I have never had a valentines date in person. Although he has made them special even from afar. Woke up once to a knock on the door of roses and chocolates and a teddy bear lol all the things you imagine. But this year is going to be better then any, because I can wake up roll over and there he will be! But.... I still want to surprise him and make it special for him. He knows my plans, of romantic dinner by candle light, but he doesn't know is I want to make him a small valentines gift. Or maybe he does, I may have hinted and gave clues. Lol i mentioned red themed stuff. But Im stumped a bit on what to get him... or better word "make" him. Since I cant really spend. I want something personal and special, yet something he will use or just, Im not sure yet. I have 3 weeks to get it all together. Have to be ready before January 30th, because when he's here I know I wont focus on anything else but him. Also you wont here from me for a month lol I am swearing off the internet for that whole month. I really want to just enjoy and savour that time together. Lots of plans. talking to my grandma, and she is willing to take me and him to check out some wedding venues. Im excited. my baby, even though im ditsy, forgetful, ruin things, wants to make me his wife. lol im a lucky girl. Truly, im very hard to be with and come with alot of crazy. But no one will love him as much as me

Well im off to chill. Its cold here, not as cold as scotland, but enough that I would be cuddling if he were here lol Hope everyone has a nice weekend!