Ah where to begin?
This month has gone by so fast, so much has happened, let see if I remember it all in order.
I picked Nathan up at the airport, it was the first time picking him up on my own, so the moment of first seeing each other, we had to ourselves, no one but us there. It was a amazing moment, hugging him, him walking with me clinging to him, first kisses again. Thats about the only part about long distance that I love, that first moment together again. The anticipation of waiting, and the moment you spot each other. I love the first day. And Nathan's always so loving that day too, I can tell completely he missed me too.
Well he got here and we had a good tow day and then dun dun duh, we checked out a wedding venue! We had been looking online and researching places and made appointments to check some out when he came. The first one was really nice, but we didn't get that feeling of "this is the place" So the next day we checked out another... and yep! It was the one, when we stood in certain spots I could see us, and our wedding. Its beautiful, the pictures I took don't do it justice.




So we booked it, and we have a date! April 15th 2015, we are getting married! Yes its still two years away, but were planning early, we'll be busy the next two years. But it's so exciting!
Went to a wedding fair and tried on a dress or two, heres one


So in the past i've mentioned me wanting to go to culinary school, if this happens, i'l be moving to Scotland in August for a year or two. (Makes wedding planning a little difficult lol) Well I have a interview! On wednesday, have a interview with the college over skype. I am beyond nervous, but slightly excited, and anxious. I have no idea what is going to be asked, which makes me panic if I think about it to much. I'm not very good with interviews. But crossing my fingers. This is going to change and shape my future.

On a negative note, had a bad family emergency. My grandfather was shot. Won't go into much detail, but I was so grateful Nathan was there for me in this time. And as odd as it is, I think it brought my family closer to him too.

Fortunatly we still got to have our valentines day. Its not good to plan things, and sometimes when you imagine it, you can be disapointed if it doen't live up to your expectations. But ah it was exactly as I always wanted. I am corny, I can't help it. And I have imagined having a v-day with my love. I have never got to celebrate this day with anyone in person. So yes I imagine and planned a bit. And it was perfect. I got the chocolate and roses, but then I got to go out and we did photo booth pictures. And then the night was perfect, it was just beyond a perect day, from morning to night he made my fantasy come true. He also forgot lol He had bought me flowers, then forgot and ordered more. So on Valentines, i got two bouquets sent to me, and my teddy bear, and chocolates, in two different vases. I k now fully how spoiled I am, I am making sure I never let him go. :P


We just had a lot of fun, we ate so much food. One day we had a taco bell date, and between the two of us ordered 12 tacos, a supreme crunch wrap, a enchirito, a tostada, a volcano burrito, a quesidilla, and a xxl burrito. And of course I ate the most lol
Ate so much chinese, and the cutest moment, on two seperate occasions Nathan got the same fortune in his cookie


It just was a good time, we bumped heads and he was a butt, and I got moody, but thats proof were a real relationship lol I miss him already. Taking him to the airport this time was so hard. It was the first time taking him to the airport. Always I have left him at the bart, and I knew that someone was waiting for me around the corner, so I can hold in my emotions better. And when I left the airport, I was focused on getting through security. And never have I looked back after saying goodbye, I don't so I wont cry more. But this time... This time I watched him go. It was so hard, I couldn't stop crying, and then when I calmed down I went to the bathroom hid in a stall and cried some more. I know its not for long, and i'll see him soon, but damn its so hard. I hate the distance with a passion. I need to focus on getting my butt over there. I miss our time there, our room, and routine we had. But right now fighting the urge not to cry again, I want him here with me again gah, 3-6 months until we next see each other, thats do able right?

Got lots to focus on, and i want to do something special for our anniversary, idk what yet, but something unique, a different gift, so I have time to save up. But I love and miss my baby. Going to end this before I start ranting.