So 11 days now until my Nathan is here. And it might be a big visit in such a short period of time. I'll find out this Thursday when my next ultra sound is, the big 18-20 week one. Which falls perfectly when Nathan is here! Im really excited, befre having our baby, Nathans always shown he wants kids one day. And since being long distance I haven't got to see him and his expressions and him now that were going to have one. I really want these moments with him.
He's working non stop up until he's here. So tired lately my poor hun, he fell asleep on me, and yeah I got my feelings hurt :P But it just shows how hard he's working for us. I need to not get so butt hurt with short responses or sudden byes. I mean the man is working sometimes 12+ hours in a day.
And he's here for my birthday, and 4th of July! And so..... I need to come up with 60 bucks in a week lol Whatever is in the bank is not to be touched, so I need to come up with 60 bucks. Nathan's very first visit here he was also here for 4th of July. Our first visit ever meeting together was also in San Francisco. And the same band that played then is also playing again this year! (which will always have a funny story tied to it :P my poor babe waited almost a hour by the bathroom for me) And I found a hotel near fisherman's wharf for the 3rd for 60 bucks. Since we're going there on the 3rd, it might be hard getting another ride back the next day, so to spend the night would solve that problem. And I think it would be nice to re-live our first visit. I really want to just have a great 3 weeks, all focused on us, before we have to get back to reality. But I don't want him to pay for it, so I'll see if he would like to go for 4th of july, and if he does let him think were just going to get a ride again the next day but surprise him with staying there! He's always been the one to surprise me and he's doing so much for our future and us, I would like to surprise him. San francisco has so many memories for me, and that 4th of july together, It was so cold, I was freezing, us all at the pier watching the fireworks, then having to climb up and down the side walks back to our hostel at night lol Just happy memories.

I don't want to be a moody booty when he's here, which I don't think I will be. I have had my moments, but they have al been based on being long distance and him out and just, I miss my man lol And im excited to be able to have our first visit together after finding out were having our little baby. I hope he takes back what he said about me shopping by myself for baby stuff. He teases a lot and then he says things that he doesn't always notice it hurts my feelings. Just him being so tired and being long distant we sometimes miscommunicate i think, not being able to hear tones and such. I want him to be involved in everything. And since were long distance were going to do some things apart, and I don't want him to have that well Im already missing out on this, so what difference does it make" attitude, and give up on things and parts. And so I hope this visit we get to focus on us, and our future family. Just have a good time to refresh us.
And! I may go there! We been talking about it and he knows I want to, but since its not concrete, nothings been set, part of me hopes it's not wishful thinking. Everything is so up in the air and so many different options. Our future can go down so many paths right now. He's come up with different ideas, We been talking about different plans. And lol i'm a bit high maintenance emotionally. I want him to sound more sure, and not so... wishy washy, whatever "I" want when it comes to these things. I'm not sure what I want exactly. Just him to have his old optimistic attitude and to feel desired? Or not just like because the clock is ticking, and we have to figure it out, so in a rush. Even though the clock is ticking down. Listening to myself I know I am crazy, my poor Nathan. I hope I give him all the love he deserves, and get to spend my life making him happy.
11 days to go, woo!