But He came down in June, for my 21st birthday, him and his family spoiled me! I got so much clothes! And he was here till July and then last minute decision we booked me a flight to go back with him! 3 days before he went home, booked me to go with him on the same flights.... crazy... impulsive.... and expensive...... but so so worth it. I cleared it with my doctor and we went! I was there from July till the end of August, so a month and a half, almost 2. Time goes to quickly, but it was good, because Nathan from his visit till mine got to be with me for her first movements, got to feel her, and we got to see me start to get a pregnant belly, witnessed a few not so fun pregnancy symptoms. I missed being there, it feels more like were living together then here. Here sometimes it feels like just a visit, there idk, I feel at home and like thats how our life togethers going to be like. I missed our bed.. but there was a new mattress lol was fine, just I can't wait to sleep on it not preg lol And we got to just be together. Was just normal, Although he had surgery while I was there, I tease him and say not fair, that this was supossed to be my time, all about me, he's not supposed to be on bed rest too :P but he finally is getting the treatment he needs... he may need more, but my babe is strong, his bodys going to heal I think. It was good, and I got to be there for his birthday. You would think going to Scotland was amazing enough but for his birthday we went on holiday and drove through London, through France, through Belgium, holiday in Holland, and went to Germany! It was amazing and so fun, it went by too fast... we swam, and ate and sight seen, and saw baby bunnies and walked through all the green. And I know how I want our first house to look like! I can totally picture him and me with our baby in a small little house like the one we stayed in. It was just so good, we were so happy and had a great time for his birthday. He has such a lucky life lol and now... well im apart of it. He's so worldly, in the past two years I've been to France, Italy, Scotland, England, Germany, just all over. I feel blessed. Things are about to get more serious and we won't be able to do as much, but I've gotten to do more then I ever imagined. And I hope we still make time for each other with trying to learn how to be new parents, travelling, college, work, and planning our wedding. It's crazy but exciting. I just don't want to loose us in all this, and the love we have and had before this year. I want to hold onto us. He's so realistic and tells me things are going to change, and I know this, im not completely naive but I can wish can't I? He's sweet to me and gives me butterflys at times, so I know we still have that sweet side, and we do have that passion, sometimes its a little less bright with everything thats going on but its still there. He still makes me crazy, and gives me butterflys.
(awwww!! lol as im blogging he wrote me, he makes my heart melt!!
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And now back to long distance, and its a lot harder with not just us two but our little bump. I have to remember that it's harder for him, Im just missing him, he's missing me but also her too. For me im just getting by, and I been a bit careless and made him feel neglected. Im making a promise to do better, I know I would be struggling too. We have a lot of bumps with this pregnancy journey, I don't think we got a groove going, its more of a one day at a time. It's hard... but its the good days that keep us going. Like today, just we need to stay strong, and focus on the future and hold onto each other. Were going to make it, and have our own little family. I need to appreciate how hard he's working and involve him better in everything, just really need to show him how much he means to me, that he's first in my life and he needs to be patient with me, and try to be understanding with my family. Were working on things. But things were so much better when we were together. I miss him. Its corny as heck but i really do feel like part of me is missing. Even when were not doing anything, or he drives me crazy, I need him. Ehh soon soon.
But here's some photos from our baby photo shoot, Im a bit bigger now, this was about 4 weeks ago.
The three of us
I hope and pray that these next 44 days fly by, that Nathan works and is happy, that our little baby girl grows strong and waits till her due date, that me and Nathan stay strong and happy, and that my feet dont swell and i don't get to many stretch marks
And you look really beautiful!
Stay strong, it's only 6 weeks, it will go by in no time.