I like how I say last entry I wouldn't talk to him the rest of the week and the next day I got another hour with him. After a week he finally gave me his say on my asking him to move here. He told me that he wants to continue pursuing any other opportunities he can there in Florida, but if by next year he's gone nowhere he will move here. I was happy with that answer even though I know it means he's going to suffer a bit more at Disney but he does have a cousin there who could help him locate a new job and he has friends so I'm not too worried. Just the possibility that we could be in the same state if not the same city next year excites me, and makes me nervous but that's nothing new. We already agreed I'd spend my 21st birthday (which is in January) with him so at least either way I'll see him in a few months. I wish it was sooner, I haven't heard his voice in a month and haven't seen his face in longer. I have so few recent pictures (namely just 4 I snapped on skype, the rest are years old from his FB account before he took it down one night) and there are some days I just want to see his face. I'm sure others can relate.

I actually got into a tiff with my mom the same day because I asked her to call my doctor so I could see about birth control. (I feel like a child so much here. I don't have my license, just a permit, I don't have a car, I have to ask to be brought places and get certain things, etc) I've wanted to be on it near a year because my periods are so awful and I need the hormone balancing for my, sad to say, body acne. I'd like to not be pockmarked for my boyfriend, thank you. It's bad enough I'm fat. But she INSTANTLY assumes it's for the sex reason (it kinda is, don't get me wrong) and she treated me like a whore, again. She was born in the 40s, I understand her views on sex and race but holy god she should know I'm not some bed-hopping hussy.

Happy late 4th to the Americans on the board, by the way. Hope yours was better than mine. I spent mine, like every major holiday, with family and ended up mad as all get out.