Every night. Every nap. Every dream. It's him. Nothing but.

Perhaps I should be grateful I'm not being plagued by nightmares, but I'm not. It's maddening dreaming of him beside me then waking up to nothing. To feel him in your sleep and wake to cold air. I haven't talked to him since Tuesday and that was only a "grats babe!" when I told him I might have a job interview at last. Then again I've been lax on my daily texting, I just can't find positive things to say. I miss him, I've been suffering daily migraines, I'm scared about money and all these superficial things that it adds up to me going insane.

This man is consuming me like a virus, gnawing away at the marrow in my bones to hollow them out so they'll snap with the smallest movement, feeding off my heartbeat like an parasite, sucking away and fattening on my blood like a leech.

Can the mad become even more so?