Never got that Chance

I'm really angry at my LDR for giving up so easily. He would always used to tell me how much he enjoys our conversations on Skype so I know he would love hanging out with me in person. I don't understand why he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Whenever we'd talk about this he says, "I really do enjoy talking to you." So keep talking to me! In a LDR that's almost a must.

All we needed was to meet one time in person to sort things out to see if we click in person as well, but since we couldn't make that happen any time soon, we both freaked. Sometimes I do want to be there for people I know who are there for me when they say they've met their LDRs they can't be apart from them. I love that people can turn to me and talk to me about their issues, too, but deep down, I never even got a chance to meet mine at all and if I had at least got the chance to meet him once, I would have been okay with things not working out.

If we had a really strong connection just on the Internet alone, through texts, Skype, and our stories, I know it would have been amazing in person. I always used to think that I could never deeply connect with someone over the Internet unless I met him in person first. I didn't want to try online dating even though a lot of friends have encouraged me to so I went to Omegle just to make friends with people to see where it would lead.

I don't get how he can be okay with this and with how the way things ended right now. Is he even talking to anyone about me? If I were him I know I couldn't keep this all to myself, especially with the way things ended I would need someone to talk to about it.

I really cannot stand people who think our love isn't real just because we never put an official title on it. I described it in my stories that people read and they can all see the love in my stories and they want us together for whoever reads my stories for the most part. And if people can see that in my stories, that's good enough for me without needing a title to make it official.

Whenever I get feedback on my stories, I really appreciate that people don't call me a "crazy, obsessed, stalker person," that I am just someone who really wants someone she can't see any time soon.

I don't get him. Whenever I'd talk about our stories that I write about us, he even gave me ideas it's good for me to compare him to my exes to show people that he's a lot better person than my exes. Right now, he's near the same level as them.

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Deleted commented

April 2, 2014, 12:03 PM

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Some people don't let others know about their LDRs because they're afraid of being judged, and frankly I can see why. My SO is the same way, and not very many people know about our relationship. I know you're trying to put yourself into his place, but you can't get into his mind and say "if I were him, I would do this..." mind control doesn't exist. Well, not yet, at least. :P
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ldrxoxo commented

April 2, 2014, 12:28 PM

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I see what you mean and do really understand why he may not tell anyone because it's kind of embarrassing to me, too say you met your SO on Omegle, haha. Of all the Internet, "dating" not really "dating" sites, I met a person I really want to be with from there. His father would probably think I'm sketchy, too coming from Omegle when they know what that site is mostly about.

I just wish he would open up to me more if he can't talk to anyone else and say what he's really thinking instead of saying what he thinks I want to hear. He never tells me if he cries or gets upset about it. He just says if we were in a situation to work things out he could.

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