I know you should enjoy every second of every day but my life feels like it is on pause for the next year. - Right now I'm in a miserable living situation with my cousin where I skip dinner just so I don't run into them in the living room. She tries to encourage me to dump Judsen and hook up with someone else so I've started avoiding her completely. I can get my own place in May when my lease is up.
- I'm working at a place where my coworkers hate me and I have no work to do. I have the threat of being laid off over my head all the time. My new job doesn't start till January.
- Judsen doesn't start interviewing for med schools until October - February. He probably won't settle for a school until April or May when he finds out which ones have accepted him.
- He won't move to City X (we have no idea what med school he'll get into) until June
- Tax season starts from January through April and I'm worried how it will affect my relationship having to work 60+ hours. The good news is that I won't have to see my roommates as much
- Our year anniversary is in December, our one year LD anniversary is in June.
It all seems to boil down to May/June. That's when I'll be finished with tax season, Judsen will be moving to wherever he gets into school, I'll be moving into a place of my own, and by then I will be settled in a job I (hopefully) like with coworkers that like me and no threat of being fired. It's just constant stress. I want the next 9 months to fly by instead of dragging me through this state of misery.
