I spent the weekend up in Rochester with my boyfriend up at his college. I left early Friday morning, making a 7 hour road trip to visit him. We were so excited to see each other! I arrived and we gave each other a huge hug and just held each other tightly. He helped me carry my stuff up to his dorm room. We then quickly put on our gear for the playoff hockey game...he wore his jersey, I wore my sweatshirt. We arrived early and got to sit in the first row within this group of fans from his school, who are notorious for being extremely obnoxious to the other team. It was SO much fun! The men's team won their game and we went back to his school. Later that night, we went to one of Anthony's friends dorm rooms and played a board game with some of his friends. We had a blast and it was pretty cool to get to know them. Next day, we went to the park with some of his friends. We all played on the playground and had so much fun! There was also a hiking trail, which we all decided to go hike through. Anthony wanted to give me a piggyback ride up to the trail, so I obviously accepted lol. It was so cute! The trail was fun, and extremely muddy. Anthony held my hand and put his arm around me as we walked. We went to the women's national championship hockey game that night...they lost, but it was a good time. At 11pm, some floormates decided they wanted to go to the diner, so we all went to get food in town. This morning, we were just hanging out on the futon, Anthony holding me closely and me putting my head on his shoulder. We also watched some Big Bang Theory! =] Then, we went to brunch with a lot of the floor and went back to his dorm room to watch some more Big Bang Theory. I had to leave at 2pm to get home at a reasonable time, seeing as I have class tomorrow. Anthony helped me carry my stuff back to my car. We hugged and did not want to let go. He gave me a kiss on the lips. This was our first "real" kiss. We told each other we loved each other and that we'd miss each other. As I set up my GPS to leave, he waved to me and turned to walk to his building. He didn't look back....it was probably too hard for him to. I began bawling my eyes out instantly. I didn't want to say goodbye to him again! ='[ It set in that I wouldn't hear his voice, see him, smell him or even be able to hug him when I need a hug for another 62 days. That hurt. A LOT. It felt as if someone kicked me in the stomach. I cried periodically throughout the drive home and I am just sitting at home missing him badly already. I have classes all day tomorrow, and there's not a chance in hell I'll be focusing at all. I just want to curl up in bed and stay there. This distance sucks and I can't wait 62 days, until we temporarily close the distance. That's the only thing keeping me strong and keeping me going right now...he'll be home for 3.5 months and we'll have the whole summer to spend together! (Though we'll resume the distance, that's not for awhile now.) This is always the worst part of the LDR....starting up again after a visit. I'd never trade my boyfriend for anything in the world, and we're both fully willing to make the distance work. I love Anthony with all of my heart, and he loves me just as much, so I need to just think about that and all the good times we had this weekend, as well as the fun summer we have ahead of us. I just want to be happy again...and to hold him again. He was already talking about the next time I visit, which will be sometime next school year. xD He wants me to visit for a week, and I'd love to, so I hope we can find a time that it works.