So today I was online, and well I havent talked to miChente in almost a week already, I saw him login to aim and msn but he was online for about an hr and didnt send me an im. I try not to be a control freak or anything but I just get a bit worried, Im thinking that maybe im not giving him space, i've sent him a message on fb once during this week just sending him a pix of what I did for him on photoshop, he likes designing things and I do too so i thought maybe I could show him more of my artistic side. Also we had planned to talk last saturday on aim, we had setup a time that was most convenient for him. On that saturday my mom decided to take the family to the mall, but since i was going to talk to him i denied it and stayed home and did some cleaning and babysat my brother. I spent the whole day expecting him to log in but he never did. I felt like I'd been stood up but i know that he has to help his parents in their business and he has a band...and he has school so I understand that well sometimes he wont be there to talk to me. But im not sure what to do, I love him and all but am I being clingy?
Have you guys gone through something similar? If so...how did you deal with it?
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#2lovemnmz commentedEditing a commentI dont like to tell my best friend about it, it feels like im always telling her how nice it is to be loved by someone and when I have fears I keep them to myself, and just hide them. I usually just listen to their problems, I dont like being selfish and conceited...and it feels that way with him too. When we do talk I dont want to just talk about what im feeling, after all he is a guy and I know guys usually dont understand what we are trying to say, but I guess I'll have to bring this up...maybe ask him how he feels about me not being online when he needs me, or if he thinks there'll be a problem with me not talking to him for two weeks because I need to concentrate on my studies. But it feels like I want to give him a taste of his own medicine, feels like im just overthinking things. It sucks!!! I guess the distance is only a test for us, and im seeing it as a test...to test if we will last, if our love is real or if its merely an infautation.
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#3FadedSunrise commentedEditing a commentWell, I ono, the best friend and I take turns talking about this to each other. Is your best friend not in a relationship? I think maybe what helps with us being ok with it is that no that we are both in a relationship, it feels like we can share advice with each other. She's been with her SO for longer, but before I bet she also felt weird talking to me with problems about him because I was single all the time we knew each other till now. I also have the same problem of not wanting to dump my problems on anybody else, but sometimes its just necessary. Sometimes you take the step to trust them with your problems and that they won't think less of you, and then next time they may do the same with you if they need it. -
#4lovemnmz commentedEditing a commentThats the thing, both of my friends are single, so i feel crappy because we used to be the single-trio lol, and so now im the only one in a relationship...and were all new to this LDR, so i have a few acquintances who are or were in a LDR but I dont feel comfortable talking to them. This morning I checked my fb and my SO left me a message saying that he was sorry that he hasnt been able to tlk to me and that he misses me...i replied telling him that i really really need him now, and that i miss him, and usually a message frim him will brighten up my mood but not even that has hlped. I guess i could find someone to dump all my problems on...but i feel that they're going to tell me to just break up, to forget about him, to move on, that its not worth it...that he will find someone else. And i am pessimistic right now, and so those negative comments will just make me feel worse and make me doubt and over analyz things, and my moms not being much support either. :/
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