‎"Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination, full of hope." - Maya Angelou

Hmmmm found it inspirational...not really. i think im loosing interest in my guy. We havent talked in like 2 or 3 weeks I think. I know we last talked before april 1st and all i knew was that his dog had had puppies, he was getting medical attention for his injury and that he loved me and was happy because I was going to see him this summer.

His brother hasnt been online either so most likely its their internet...yet I saw that he added someone on FB as his friend. Hmmmm maybe thats no good for me. :/ Maybe he wants to end things with me and just doesnt know how to break it to me. Maybe these ideas are the ones that are making me bury my new found love for him.

It seems so easy for me to just lock my feelings away. Put them into a small bock and bury them, act as if nothing worried me. I've had thoughts of breaking up before I get to Mexico but my mom already told his grandma and aunt that we are traveling down to Mexico and that they are welcomed to give me anything they'd want to send to my mans family...so now I feel obliged to keep myself in a relationship until we can talk it out.

Ugh...I want to call him...but my mom said that I shouldnt because his mom might get annoyed since im looking for her son. My mom has some old fashioned thoughts and she doesnt live by them 24/7 but she does warn me that his mom might think the same way as her in reference to me calling him.

If im a good girl and well brought up I should wait until he looks for me, when he comes searching, when he does his best to contact me.

I dont mind the thought or well idea of him chasing after me but now we are a couple so it has to be a thing of two and not one!