So im going through a time where im reading other peoples blogs and all i see are sad blogs, blogs about issues with their SO, blogs about break ups and its getting to me. Im starting to feel like my LDR isnt working. I feel like im loosing interest.
Love. Ah that feeling. Felt it a month ago. Now I store it away and take it out only when I talk with my SO. It's like my Bible, im not religious, but when I feel that I need some peace or when its necessary i'll take it out and use it. Its the same thing with this feeling...love.
I talked to my best friend Kevin, he's like a brother to me. I asked him what it meant for a guy to say "I love you" and he replied by saying that a guy will say it if he means it. That I should take the love and just live with it. Carpe diem. But i cant, i have to analyze it.
This analyzing leads to thoughts of things that just make me feel crappier. Analyzing leads me to thoughts of break ups.
One theory of mine is that he isnt talking to me because his whole family knows about us, and he feels awkward about it and so he wants to break up with me and doesnt know how to so he will stop talking to me and that he will ignore me. And i wont call because he knows im afraid of talking on the phone. u.u
im a paranoid freak.
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#1Tara_Lynn commentedEditing a commentWomen overanalyze. We simply cannot help it I think. You are going to visit him soon though, correct? Hold on to your love for a bit longer. Sometimes, we all just need a wake up call and seeing your SO can strengthen the bond like it seems you need. Look back over your relationship. We all have bad days, weeks, and even months sometimes. Maybe your SO is going through one of those spells. You have to love the good and bad in your SO and support them even in the tough times. However, I will caution you to calmly talk about all of these issues with your SO when you see him and if you both cannot come to common ground on your issues/problems then you might need to rethink the direction the relationship is going. Keep your head up though, dear!
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#2lovemnmz commentedEditing a commentawwwwwwww thanks, im actually getting all emotional waiting for my next class to start. hahahaha, but yea i sent him a message telling him that we need to make time for eachother because i think we need some, and that we need to talk. I said that these next weeks im going to be a lot more busy and in case he wants to talk that we need to setup a time. I hope he understands that im not blaming anything on him or putting him through a guilt trip or anything of that kind, because I know that he has a life and that he is recovering from an injury but that as soon as he has time to atleast send me a hello. I hope i wasnt harsh or made things worse.
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