So I have two weeks before I hop onto a plane and get closer to my SO. We havent talked but I have a feeling we will talk next week. If not i'll give him a call. This trip will be the one that will let me know if I want to keep at it with this long distance relationship. Maybe I shall finally accept his love, and I will give back 100% of my love. Im with holding atleast 20% of my love for now. I gave up on making plans...because I have a feeling that they wont work out as they should. I just realized that exactly one month wont be enough for me...hopefully I get to see my SO every 2-3 days maybe 4...depending on what my family decides to do.

Also I think it will be time to talk to him about something important. I wont be able to travel every summer just to see him, or during my winter break. So I need him to come after me. I want him to apply for a visa but it can get a bit difficult....hopefully they'll give it to him. He has only lived in Mexico for a year...all the other yrs he spent his life here in NYC. So now im just letting things float...just not thinking about it.

.....i guess this is all lol