So this isnt LDR related ut its the only safe place where I know that no one else will read this from my family. So heres the basics, my mother shares the same mom but has different father from that of her siblings. She is the youngest and it was never a real issue until now i guess.

So to the point....my family as in my mom and my siblings are belittled by the rest of the family. We are the poor ones. We are the untouchables...or so it feels like it. I feel hurt in a way because my cousins have a good connection and I thought i had a good relationship with them but its not...and on my dads side of the family i dont have a close relationship with my cousins neithr bcuz most of them are younger than me and well we dont see each other that much. Anyways...i feel bad because my mom cut off her communications with her sister bcuz she'd been a total btch with my mom the last time we saw eachother and im on my moms side on this. But what angers me is that we are criticized for everything.

My uncle criticized my mom for letting me have a LDR and to have taken me to see my SO this summer....but in reality we already knew his whole family before we became a couple and before he had to move...so in a way we were just visiting some family friends. Also he said that my bf looked asian...in a negative way, i felt hurt...offended. I cant believe they criticize my LDR...i mean my SO is MILES away yet they dont see anything wrong with my older cousin sleeping with her BF and still living at home...but her BF takes her on luxurious trips....to think that what im doing...ok what I AM not doing with my SO is wrong..is just...dumb!

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWRRR!!! i hate family issues...its just nerve wracking...it hurts because I know my mommy is hurting but idk what to do...smh