So on saturday i went to a baptism and my mom invited two people to come along, Debbie who is really nice and is 16 and the guy...Luis-he's the one who has a crush on me-and was invited by my parents to come along...my dad did it on purpose.
Anyways at first it was awkward but then we danced and what not...but what was killing me was that 2yrs ago me and my SO went to a party in the same place...and i was reminiscing and just thinking bout my SO.
What bothers me is that my mom keeps telling me that Luis looks at me with such tender and loving eyes...and she's like "i would prefer him over your BF." and its not nice...and i would have given him a chance if i were single...but now im thinking...if i were to break up with my man whom i love...would i go to Luis?
He's a nice guy but idk..i only just met him and he's a friend but nothing more....
I think i would only date him for the attention, for the physical part of the relationship....and im with my SO right now because it started out as an emotional thing...where i wasn't so hyped up on his appearance or the thought of his kisses, his touch...it was a crush.
Then after i saw him this summer...i loved his kisses, his hugs, his touch...it added to our relationship...so im attracted to him on a emotional, physical way.
Yet now this guy is thrown into this where my weakness is right now wanting some love...some hugs and kisses, a "normal" relationship where i can hold his hand and i can cuddle up next to him...this is where i think about if its worth it...if this LDR is worth it.
the worst part is that...i dont know if we plan a future together...even though i keep telling myself that i should let this love run its course.
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#1yayagrl commentedEditing a commentThis is definitely something you need to think about for yourself whether it's just you're feeling this way because you miss your SO or because of other reasons. If you feel Luis is causing these thoughts whenever he's around then I would sit your parents down and explain to them that you are invested in this relationship with you SO and the fact that they invite Luis places as a form of "distraction" isn't fair to you and that they need to respect that you are interested in your SO only no matter how much they approve of Luis or would rather you date him. It's not fair to you for them to do that
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#2lovemnmz commentedEditing a commentthanks...and its not only Luis, its just guys in my classes...there are cute guys...and what not but i sometimes wonder...what would it be like to be held by one of them...but its harder when Luis is around because even his uncle starts joking around and i've made it clear to him that im very much in love with my SO and im happy with him but his uncle wont back down...and these people as in my parents and his uncle do it on purpose to bother me and to poke fun but i cant sit down with my parents because they start telling me that im young and shouldn't be so stuck on this one dude, that my dude is most likely with other girls, flirting and what not, its frustrating...because they also tell me other things...smh
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