So i was close to breaking up with him because of the lack of communication and the feeling of neglect. I sent him a loooong letter and told him i was angry, sad, neglected, etc. He finall replied and told me everything that had gone wrong in his life, how sorry he was and that he loved me...and i think what kept me here was "BE STRONG, I KNOW YOU'RE A STRONG GIRL"

I didn't forgive him so easily...or so he thinks. He likes to tell me babe...but i told him to stop telling me babe but he kept doing it and i was acting like i was annoyed but i couldn't stay mad at him. Is this love? Being able to forgive, being able to understand where he is coming from yet letting him know about my needs?

Is it love to forgive and forget the small things? I think that...when it comes to fights, im the more aggressive and emotional one and he is more of a take it easy guy...like if i start the fight he will listen and then say he is sorry accepting his wrongs...in a way i think we balance each other.

He wants to avoid the fight...we had a small disagreement before but then i had a bigger realization. I asked him if he wanted to see me this summer...he said yes i said i dont have a lot of money...his response "i need the money for a piano and a new motorcycle i want...sorry"

I realized I wasn't his top priority...and I decided at that moment that it was time to test his love. I am going to put my summer to good use this year. I want to study abroad and am going to put all my energy and money into this dream. I want to go to Genoa, Italy So if he wants to see me, he should also work and atleast help me pay for half...is it wrong what i am doing??

I love him...yes i do. That is why i am also avoiding this dude who is hitting on me...u.u tough isnt it? lol