My friend came back from the US. She did find that particular dress I picked online but said it didn't look nearly as pretty IRL. It was heavy and looked drapey she said. So she got me a different dress for half the price, and I do like her choice.

This is the dress: (sorry for bad lighting and fuzziness on the pics)

The colour is some very pale pink/beige/champagne. It's probably not something I'd pick for myself, it kind of looks like a prom gown, but I really liked it when I put it on. The length is also great.

Here's me in it:


The only problem is I can't zip up the top part It's a good 1.5-2" too tight for my 36" ribcage. Maybe if I had no boobs whatsoever And the dress is already a size bigger than my usual size. I'm taking it to the seamstress though, I think she'll put a ribbon instead like on a corset so I can tighten it as necessary. Bah. I hate numbers and sizes.

I'm going Vienna next week which is when I'll get to wear the dress. I'm also meeting my SO for the first time since January. I think not seeing each other in February came particularly hard on him, he's been a bit needy last couple of days. He spent the weekend hanging out with his friends and it's different these days, they're all engaged or married and whereas they're all looking to 'get away' for a weekend, I think it makes him feel lonelier than usual. It's hard when you're feeling needy but even harder when your SO is. I wish I could offer him more of a comfort than just reminding him we'll see each other in a week. We're both really excited about Vienna, not least because it's a break from the routine, "I'm visiting your place, you're visiting mine". An adventure is just what we need to keep our spirits up

Work has been really busy lately, I've picked up a new project to work on and it's a big learning curve. He's been looking at houses to buy which isn't really going the way he's planned, mostly because there's not many acceptable properties on the market for the budget he has to work within. He's hellbent on getting a house though, if he were looking at flats too, there'd be a much wider range of options. I'm not getting involved too much at this point, even though it concerns my future too. I know he won't be making any decision withouth loads of consideration, so I'm waiting for him to figure out on his own what's realistic and what isn't. It's a learning curve for him too.

My brother's coming over in two weeks for a short visit, which is great news. He lives in Canada but still has a week left of last year's annual leave and has to use it up by May I think. Anyway, he used his miles and got a cheap ticket to come over 7 days. Mother is over the moon understandably.

The situation with dad is somewhat normalised. The divorce is in procedure, neither of them are raising any fuss about it. He lives in his house, which used to be our family house, and tries to maintain a long-distance relationship with this other woman. I've met him a couple of times in the past 6 months. I can have a polite conversation with him, like a with a distant relative, we can update each other on what's going on and so on. But I have no need or desire to have him involved in my life in a greater extent or to know more about his daily life. I have no room for that kind of person in my life.

Anyway, my life is hectic and at the same time it's going on a steady track, which is not that bad I guess.