On one hand, I'm really grateful I decided to join Tumblr, because I've had a lot of fun experiences and have met some pretty neat people, but on the other hand, it's kind of turned me back into the might-as-well-be-catatonic-for-all-the-good-she-is-to-the-world person I was a few years back. XD
I'm fighting it, though. Won't let it happen again. Mom kinda called me on it yesterday and while I got a bit defensive and argued, I realized she has a point. So I'm cleaning up my act. And my room. Good grief, I spent half an hour trying to find a workout DVD I own, and I tore apart my room doing it. It was already a trash heap, but it looks like a mini tornado came through. It makes me cringe every time I walk in. XD
Today wasn't really all that productive, but I feel pretty good about it all the same. I didn't get my workout done until 2:30 PM, but I did do it, and I did enjoy it. Which is fun, because I thought I was gonna die while I was in the middle of it. But I think I really needed to be doing this. It's not a lot of bouncing around for my knees to handle, but it works my muscles really well and since it's based on yoga, I always feel really calm and peaceful after I finish. I went through a period of time where I couldn't stand the idea of watching that DVD anymore, but I guess it's been long enough that I'm over that.
And I went to the pool with my dad and my youngest brothers. I walked around in the pool a bit, to kind of work on my knees, but it was really crowded (free swim day), so I got out and just sat on the side most of the time. It was kinda nice, because I won't admit this anywhere else but I like the way I look in my swimsuit. I'd love to find a swimsuit that successfully covers up the girls without making me look awkward or something, but I haven't yet, so I go with showing them off in a more flattering way. Can't tell my parents that, though--they'd never understand. XD Plus, I do try to be as modest in how I dress as possible, so saying "I like how I look in a swimsuit that just happens to show off a fair amount of cleavage" sounds weird to me anyway. >.>
ANYWAY.
I haven't gotten to talk to Eebs much since he's been back--I don't really know what he's up to, but I don't expect he'll tell me. It's so hard to pry any information out of him. I would say something, but I don't want every interaction we have to be me telling him all the things he needs to do differently. XD So I guess I'm just waiting. Waiting for a more opportune moment, waiting for him to be a little more receptive, waiting till it's a more relevant issue. For example, I've asked him twice how his trip was, and he hasn't said ANYTHING in response to that. He's answered a couple other questions I've asked about more trivial things, or something that directly pertained to me, but he hasn't even acknowledged that I was curious how his trip went. If he continues to ignore the question, if I ask it again, but he's fine talking about other things, then I'll probably say something.
I think he doesn't realize that since we can't DO anything together, we have to make up for it in other ways.
I haven't heard back from his sister yet, but I'm not bothered.
I guess my friend is moving here from KS after all. Not sure on a date. But in the next week. And I'm sick of typing on my kindle so that's all for now.