Then on January 1st, I had a long skype talk with my Mom. She is going through a hard time because of some physical challenges and she talked to me a lot about how she was learning to accept her situation and not live in a constant state of depression because of it. Her words were so inspiring to me and I could hear in her voice that the weight she had been carrying in her heart and lightened. I wanted that same lightness.
The past 7 days have been great for me. I had already been feeling very accepting about leaving my SO and that talk with my Mom only furthered my positivity. I now feel even more accepting of my situation of being stuck in this town and about being in an LDR. There are always silver-linings and I've been focusing on those.
In AWESOME news: I get to go home (USA) for February break!!!!



I am beyond excited about this. I wasn't planning on going back until maybe August for a visit but then I realized how much I missed my family and I decided to ask my parents if they would buy me a plane ticket. They won't usually buy things for me so it was a long shot. But they agreed!!!!
This is going to help the next 4 months go by even faster!!
January- 4 weeks work
February- 3 weeks work + 1 week America

March- 1 week America
+ 1 week work + 1 week chaperone for Paris + 1 week work + 1 week chaperone to EnglandApril- 2 weeks work + 2 weeks vacation (probably going to Budapest)
May- MOVE BACK TO BE WITH MY MAN

Looking at that list brings me some serious joy people.
Realizing you've been feeling negative in time to change it is a wonderful thing, you're close to the end now, just keep your resolve to feel more positive a little while longer, especially during the rougher times.
and being able to visit your parents again! awesome much.