So I am a month late on my period at this point. I have had one negative HPT (one week post the missed period) and one sort of negative blood serum pregnancy test (one month post the missed period, aka yesterday). I've been having all the pregnant symptoms (sore breasts, nausea, fatigue, increase in urination, and I suddenly can't stand my favorite wine). My doctor did a full work up and said that he couldn't find any explanation for these symptoms.
The blood pregnancy test came back negative, but the lab said it was an inconclusive negative because it took too long to show. So basically I have to wait a week, take another HPT. If in two weeks I haven't started I have to go get another blood pregnancy test. And if all that comes back negative I have to have an ultrasound in a month, to make sure it isn't an ectopic pregnancy (which I have an increased risk of) or something else.
This is really stressful in an LDR. I had to explain all this to my SO over the phone. He can't come to the doctor with me to understand this. We've discussed kids before and were both mostly on the same page. I had said I never ever want to have children, and if I did I would want to only have one and maybe adopt, all much later in life, like in my 30s. He wants to have kids, just not right now.
We've only been together for 11 months, so this timing isn't really great. I would have enough time to graduate before having the baby if we chose that. But I would have to go through much of the pregnancy alone. We have discussed abortion before, and both said that was an option we'd go for.
The thing is if there is this thing in inside me, this thing we made, I don't know that I could do it. We are in a place were we could financially handle having a child and the timing would fit with us closing the distance. But I've always thought being pregnant sounded terrifying and awful. Basically I am just freaking out.
I hate waiting.
For everyone thinking abortion automatically leaves you emotionally scarred, do your research before you speak:
Abortion doesn't affect well-being, study says. Actually, most women (who aren't made to feel guilty) feel relief. Also statistically, a legally performed abortion is safer than giving birth. We get it, you wouldn't do it. It's not about you though.
@nottheprincesspeach Wishing you the best of luck whatever the test results xx
I know this is an extreme case, but this is an example of why pregnancy scares me. Maybe some people dont understand why women are scared of it or freaked out by it, but just because they don't understand, it doesn't give them the right to judge those of us who are.
Nottheprincesspeach has the right to do what she wishes. As she has already stated, she is looking at all options. She doesn't need people telling her that she should keep the baby just because their religious beliefs say that is so.
Good luck out there in whatever you decide to do, hon. We are here for you!