Valentine's Day is normally a rough day for me, I work in a florist. I spend my day wrapping flowers and packing up chocolates and hearing what all these gentlemen have planned for their wives/girlfriends. I come home exhausted and tired...its just overall draining.

I had talked to Wes on Monday and asked if I should expect anything on Tuesday, he replies "maybe". Well I took that to mean I should expect something. Well nothing came before I left for work this morning, and nothing had come while I was there. Needless to say massive disappointment. I'd had this sinking feeling all day that I was going to come home to nothing and it happened. I broke down when I stepped in the door and found nothing. He knows I don't need materialistic things. A card, a romantic letter...doesn't have to be anything big. But nothing?...

When I talked to Wes later he admitted that he forgot to mail my valentines gift out til Saturday night and didn't mail it until Monday. Now if I made that mistake I'd be next daying it because I would want it there on the day or at the latest the day after. But he sent it flat rate mail, meaning I won't get it for a week. He said he figured since he already messed up why bother. That really doesn't make me feel good about myself or about this relationship.

After him saying he didn't care what I was saying, then him obviously not caring about sending me something for valentines to show me he loves me, I'm so disheartened. I'm so unhappy...I just don't know what to do anymore. Part of me thinks he'd be happier being single like all his buddies. Guess all I can do is wait to see what exactly he sent me a week late.