Time difference sucks... really.

Having a 10 hour time difference means that we get a chance to talk when I should go to bed and when he wakes up. Which usually means that I don't go to bed and stay up late. For a month my daily routine has been waking up 2 pm and going to bed 4 am (sometimes even 5 am). Well I was completely okay with that because I don't have any classes and I only have to study for exams right now. But my SO doesn't like me staying up late.

But I want to stay up late because I want to talk to him as much as possible. I don't like waking up at 8 am then wait the whole day just to see his face for an hour and then go back to sleep and repeat, when I could stay up late and wake up late.

And when he usually asks, why I am up late, I usually make some kind of excuse, because telling him that the reason is him, is going to make him feel bad. And my parents are worried about me, but they think that I am staying up late, because I play computer games (which I do sometimes), but they don't understand that I just miss my SO (they don't really support my ldr).

Heh I'm just complaining here...

But I understand that this daily routine is not really... normal and healthy and I should stop complaining and change my daily routine back to normal...

#random #ramblings