I think I've mostly adjusted over to my SO being gone now. It's funny, I'm able to maintain a fairly normal, regular schedule again, and on one level I'm happy, but it's like there's this deep river of sadness tinging my day from time to time. It's not outwardly noticeable, but I see it in little things: the occasional tearing up and crying, feeling barely hungry, and my sleep schedule is whacked.

Of course, all of this can also be explained by being on heavy medication last week for my hurt back. So... I think I'm adjusting/adjusted back over to being alone again.

This wouldn't be so hard if we had a concrete plan to see each other again, but so much is up in the air. All I can do is pray he gets a job as I save up money.

Please, please let him get a job...