The long and short of it is there's no outcome. Things have been pretty down for me, and I really don't know where things are going, except we're going to close the distance. I wish I could bring myself to care. Right now it's all I can do to get to work, shuffle around, then go home. I can engage in life and I'm taking care of the necessaries, but I have no motivation for anything. Sleep and tiredness is my companion. I'm barely hungry anymore. I'm just going to have to get used to this. I have no one I can talk to, the only things I can look forward to in the least are my weekends. I can't even look forward to talking to my SO, as he's worse than I am at handling the distance. We weren't talking a whole lot - it's dependent on moods, and his wasn't remotely positive until this morning.
I'm glad he started working as of yesterday, because it's obviously cheered him up and made him feel better. I'm guessing that most of his issues will mitigate down to very little now that he finally has a real something to occupy his time, and the pressure is off now that he can attain money so we can live together. He really is the breadwinner mentality, which is good now that he has a job. It was bad when he didn't, LOL.
So yeah, I'm here... dunno how much I'll be posting on here for awhile, as I had to force myself to do this blog entry. I'll try my best not to lurk, but no promises.
For now, back to waiting until the Gods know when...
I wish I could explain - I'm not down-down, but rather so very apathetic. I just don't care.