This week it finally started hitting me in that very in the face way that I'm leaving in a few months. I've put in my notice to my work and let them know I'm leaving at the beginning of April. I've told my supervisor, over-boss, and the director of the program, but I haven't put out a general announcement yet.
That started the unveiling, but what finished it is getting invited to my friend's wedding in Sydney. She and I have been online friends for awhile, and we really get along - plus we have the same faith. She asked me to be a bridesmaid! I was just - gosh, so excited and flattered! I've been a best man twice, and this is the first time I've been a bridesmaid, but I take the duties of a ceremony position seriously. Part of being Pagan is the importance of having the right energy and mind to participate in a ritual, and handfastings/weddings are one of the most important to us. Assuming everything goes well when we meet this year, I'm in.
I'm very, very honored.I told Matt about planning to spend a weekend near Sydney, and he was quite happy, joking about scoring with a bridesmaid. It hit me, like an epiphany. This is real. I'm really going to be in his arms, living life, handling struggles and joys together. I'm so excited.
What we needed all along was for him to get a job, and now that he has one, even though I know that I'm still going to have some adjustment shock, and I know I'll be a little scared even as I'm excited, it's working out. Finally. The dominoes are all finally lining up, and soon I'll be focusing on my writing and working part-time.
Matt told me that I had the option of letting him pay for our lodgings and writing fulltime, or I could work part-time and pay for my lodgings on my own. Again, it hit me right in my soul. This is everything I've wanted and needed in a partner. In life. Support, love, friendship, family.
I'm still going to work part-time, but he has that option open for me.
I love him. I'm loved.
I'm so happy.
