Im a couple blogs back I wrote how I was unsure where our relationship was headed. I decided I would change some things on my end to see if that helps how I feel. Hang out with friends more, get a gym membership kinda things.

I've now been back for three nights and I'm ready to pull my hair out. The first night I wanted to put up the Christmas tree, but he was tired and couldn't be bothered. He finally did it after some begging.
I had been hinting at our upcoming anniversary for the whole month I was gone, while we were putting up the tree I asked if he wanted to go for dinner for it, and he said he has been busy at work and never gave it much though. I bought a little Mickey and Minnie skating ornament for our anniversary, it broke separating the tow figures. I'm not much superstitious, but this just didn't seem like a good sign. He didn't even say thank you.

The next night. I brought a game from home hoping that maybe it would give us something different to do. We had just got home from dinner and I asked if he wanted to play. It's called dirty minds where there are dirty clues but a clean answer. I gave him an example and he said it was stupid and didn't want to play.

I was up that night until 4am, partially thinking part jetlag. I was sure breaking up was what I need to do but then the next morning/day everything seems good and I do love him so the decision is hard and I doubt if it is the right one.

Last night we are getting ready to go out with some lovely peeps from LFAD, I haven't been out in a while so I do my makeup and put my hair up. I got some new clothes while I was home so I was excited to wear them. I got this long plaid shirt and put on some leggings and boots.

We sit down to have some pizza before we leave and he tells me what I am wearing os a little trashy! I say 'You're a little assholy' silence for a few seconds before he comes at me with 'I just didn't think you were like that' I tell him to just stop and he asks why. I tell him because he is being mean. Then he decides not to talk to me the entire trip to London. After dinner when we get to a pub he says something to me about something and I tell him I am not happy with him. He proceeds to justify what he said and how he didn't say anything wrong and if you can't say how he feels then he is being censored.

On the way home he tells me to talk about it, I tell him I'm not in the mood and we don't talk for the rest of the night.

This morning, still nothing until I say 'morning' He doesn't look at me, he doesn't say anything to me at all after that. I then ask if there is a reason he is ignoring me, 'not anymore then you are to me' he says back. Then he says I think he is an asshole. Ya what you said was a real asshole thing to say. But instead of saying 'ya maybe it was im sorry' he yet again goes on to tell me how leggings as pants is trashy (I had a long shirt on!) and that it looked bad and he is entitled to his opinion. I said there is a difference between stating your opinion and being malicious and if he didn't think there was a difference then we have some major issues and I walked off.

I feel like I am trying, coming up with things to do, games etc but they are always being shut down. I went to work and had a bit of a vent and they said I should talk to him lay everything out before I end it but how do I talk to someone who never ever does anything wrong and thinks they are entitled to say whatever they like because of 'free speech'

How do I tell him how I am feeling without telling him he is being a 3 yr old idiot. How do I use those "I' statements instead of you you you are a jerk!?