I still haven't talked to my SO. I don't know what to say to him. I'm feeling really bored with my life. My days off are spent on the couch doing nothing. The thought of going to the store purely to get out of the house depresses me. I work and then come home all week long.

I have doubts a ton about our relationship and then I see him and I feel like all those feelings are silly but then the cycle starts again the next day when he goes to work.

I want sex, it feels like we are best friends that just live together. We cuddle lots but it never goes beyond that. He only gets in the mood at the middle of the night when I am dead tired and the last couple times he starts to touch me I feel really uncomfortable. I told him it would be nice to have sex at another time when I am awake and just as willing to go. He told me when he gets home from work that is the last thing on his mind. Our relationship is good, but this really bothers me. I've been unsatisfied for a year now and anything I've worked up the courage to say goes unchanged. I read an article about someone with a similar problem and the reply was along the lines of every relationship will require some sort of compromise. It is easy to find someone else with a higher sex drive but not as easy to find someone who is marriage material. Do I just accept it? I don't know what to do.

The visa we need to apply for is coming up really fast, it looks like it might be more complicated then I thought. I can apply for it here but then they take away my passport and apparently everything is back logged and couple take months to get back, meaning I can't go home in the summer for my friends wedding. Or I can try to apply from outside of the country but then who knows when I'll be back.

None of that probably makes any sense...