It's been three weeks since we talked, nothings changed. I suppose in his defense he did get very touchy twice but again it was very late and I was half asleep so nothing happened. Last night I got home at 5 and we had the evening together. it was perfect opportunity for something to happen, but nope. I thought about it, and I don't even know how to initiate it.

The night we went out for Valentines dinner, it came up that he still sometimes thinks about how I was unfaithful a year ago. We had an issue with his a few months after it happened that whenever we were intimate he would think about it and have to stop. I suppose maybe it is still the same. I hate it though, I get that it probably still bugs him but it was such a stupid slip up that it doesn't even come up in my head anymore because it was one time and stupid. I suppose it takes time to heal but how long to I have to wait?

I feel like there is absolutely nothing sexual between us at all anymore. I also might have realized that as much as I want to have sex and be intimate as soon as the opportunity gets within reach I don't want it anymore. I don't know if it is in general, or just with him.

Things were going really well but then this past friday we went to a beer tasting festival and he has issues when he drinks. Well on the tube home something clicked in him (think jeckyl and hide) and everything I said to him he claimed was either condescending or treating him like a dick. I was sober and didn't say anything to him I wouldn't say any other time. WHen we got back we were walking silently home and I said lets cross the street and crossed. He didn't follow and continued on the other side. I was stopped at the lights but he ran quickly across and continued walking. I am so sick of him leaving me places as I walked by work I saw some people still there so I stopped in, he never looked back so I had my phone with me incase he decided to care that I hadn't come home with him. Turns out my phone wasn't working and he came out looking for me.

We fought a bit in the street. I told him that there is always an issue when he drinks and he said I was the one that left him (when I crossed the street, he didn't hear me) He said he had nothing to apologize for because he didn't do anything wrong and I always treat him like he is a dick. It was left at that, he went home.

The next morning i asked him if he really thought I treat him like he is dumb and he said he felt like it often. I really don't know where this is coming from. I told him I treated him like it last night cause he was acting like one and when he drinks he acts differently and I hate being treated like that when he drinks. He still said he didn't have to apologize for anything and I left it.

I don't know what to do. How can you be in a relationship if you aren't willing to accept that you are wrong. I even apologized for crossing the street to where to crosswalk was and for not saying it louder. I don't think it was malicious like he thought but I did say sorry. I don't know where this is going, I'm just frustrated.