I'm starting to think I am incapable of forming relationships/friendships. I just got home from a nightclub for a girls leaving party from work. It was okay but all the girls I work with are so close and I feel like I don't fit. I know it shouldn't matter, but there is a total of 6 girls that work at my restaurant and there are always photos of them all going for dinner or hanging out and I am never invited. I don't know how much I have in common with these girls, we get along well at work but it would be nice to be invited.
Before we went to the bar they gave the girl going away a bracelet which cost about £100 and then they go around telling people at work they owe them £10. I am not big on gift giving, unless I'm close. These girls those give gifts for everything and I hate dishing my money out on it. I know that I won't get any sort of nice send off when I leave and maybe its a little selfish but where is my fancy bracelet? Even growing up, my friends hardly gave gifts, and when they decided to it was never for me.
I feel like I am a perfectly good friend but never given the chance. In Grade 6 I wanted to be in library club and these two best friends said I could do it on the same day they did decided after a while they didn't want me with them anymore and didn't hide the fact. In Jr high me and two other girls were super close all of grade 8 and then after the summer they started hanging out sans moi. The girls I moved in with after high school told lies to me and when I came back from Germany after a year away any of the people i still talked to from high school couldn't be bothered with me anymore.
I do have a few close friends whom I am super grateful for but I feel like there must be something wrong with me. I've never been the centre of attention (not sure I mind) but just the fact that no one cares enough to call me to go for a group dinner or whatever sucks.
Maybe thats why I've always had a boyfriend since I can remember, because I had no one else to hang out with. I don't usually wallow in self pity, just kind of got to me tonight.
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Oh well, who needs friends when I have you guys!
You'll be right, you're stuck with us lovely folk!
Seriously though, I know what you mean. I cannot for the life of me find a friend that I like spending time with here. And even some of my supposedly best friends from the States have let me down in the time I've been gone.
I agree with the others, those girls seem kind of bitchy but it sucks to be left out anyway.